Dear penpen,

Sorry for your lost and what you're going through. Losing someone and breaking up is a part and parcel of life, I've been through all that. I lost the grandpa that raised me from 3 days old, he actually took his last breath infront of me after battling diabeties and other complications for about 2 years (he was bedridden) I was 19/20 at that time. Breaking ups oh boy, a lot that I can think of. I lost my bestfriend of nearly 10 years when I was 23.

The thing to all these is to talk to someone close or someone you trust. Don't bottle up your sorrow. About not finding a guy, the time will come for you, as for your ex who cheated on you do you think it's worth all these, hunny let me tell you he's not worth of your tears and your heart. Pm me if you want to talk, take care - Hart74

Thank you Hart74 for your response. I'm sorry for the loss of your grandpa, and your best friend.

I have been talking to my mom about all of this, she is very supportive. My ex and I used to text each other all day, everyday, and now we aren't talking at all, and I think that is the hardest part about all of this. He taught me how to kiss, and he was my first. I feel really stupid now, because I'm not the kind of person who just goes around having sex with anyone...in fact, I wanted to wait until marriage, but I loved him, and changed my mind. I wish that I wouldn't have done that. I have to get tested for STD's now because even though he told me he was clean, I don't trust him. I really cared about him. He cheated on me, and thats why the relationship ended....but I miss him! Thank you for listening.

I'm so so sorry for both of your loses. I can only imagine how hard it is to watch a loved one pass away before your eyes, and it is understandable that it made you feel so depressed. You should try to focus on all the great times you had with him instead of the last time you saw him. Do you have pictures or any physical memories with him (perhaps a ticket of something you saw together)? Maybe making a scrap book would help. It would let you remember in a positive light the good times you had with him and give you something to keep forever.

Good for you for standing up for your beliefs and not hanging out with friends who made bad decisions. Sure, you may be a few friends short, but its much better than being stuck in the wrong crowd. At least you can feel good about sticking to your morals and being so strong.

Are you in college yet/do you have plans of going? College can be a great place to meet people who hold the same morals and values as you, as well as similar interests. There are often many clubs and organizations that can help you find the kind of people you want to associate with.

I'm very very sorry to hear about your ex as well. It has to be extremely hard to be hit with that kind of information. I know what a shock it must have been and how scary it seems now, especially knowing that he was a lot of your firsts. Time will heal this wound, even though it may seem impossible at this point. You will find a guy who will treat you with the respect that you deserve. Good luck, and keep your head up high.

I'm really sorry for the things that happened to you. I know that you think that theirs no hope for you to be happy again, but i disagree. Life is all about that. All my life i been having in my head that friends comes and go. Just like girlfriend and boyfriends. This is my opinion, some other people might be lucky on the girl or boyfriend relationship. I got lucky just no when i met this girl, But i wasn't lucky enought because she is in Washington(state) and im in Miami Florida. Is a long trip. But i will get there and i'm almost there. Life sometimes turns weird, everybody seems against you, people in your family dying just like that without you expecting it and maybe dying when you most need them, just like friends. Im really proud that you didn't continue being friends with those in high school that smokes and drink, trust me, It wouldn't be good, you would have physical, mind and organs problems such as alcoholic and asthma. Knowing that you found a person that you would be happy with and then he just go like that(your ex-boyfriend) is really hard to just even thinking about it. You probably be thinking that you would never find that guy and that happiness, But nobody, NOBODY in this world was born alone,. You actually have that soul mate. And believe it or not i think it was best that your relationship ended fast because imagen 1 or more years of relationship and then you find out he cheated on you, It would've been worst. It makes scence, he wasn't the guy you need and expected. And guys nowaday just want to sex and have fun and not taking anything serious, TRUST me i know. This is why i think i will never brake up or make my relationship hard for us because i don't want my girlfriend to end up with somebody like that. You know what i do when im deppress? I think, and think, and think, and you can even come here and idk add me to your friendlist and you can share your feelings, im all ears. Depression can be control, but not just make it disappear. I wish you good luck because time like this in my life, it would come harder and harder and more depress. So, I wish you the best PenPen. And if you want us to be friends, just add me, i will add you too..


Take care.

Get over it. Just be careful next time. It all comes down to that. I'm sorry if I might seem really harsh but that reality. You feel better if you just let it go. He was a jerk and you were just some sweet innocence girl and he took advantage. That same sh&t happen to me too. But I was like f%ck it and just lived life better. But if you want the "pain" to go away don't worry about it. Stop dawning on it. I was depressed in High School. I brought a gun and put it to my head singing the barney song counting down to my death in Art class. I pulled the trigger and nothing happen. LOL. I forgot to put the pullets in it. My whole class was crying and screaming and I thought I was going to die, but I didn't and was like what the h@ll. And fainted in front of everyone. I was in a mental institute for 3 years. That happen when I was 16. True Story.

i don't know why but why can't people have open relationship's i have seen lot's of chics and guys cheat on each other basically you see it on the bus or the train on their phones 'shush my bf calling etc' i think humans arent' designed to have one partner they get too bored easily and they'll lie till their caught just my oppinion though....

Thanks for your replies. This happened almost a year ago, and since then I found a new bf and he is wonderful! We have been together 8 months now and are even living together! I am so happy with my life right now.