I have really been struggling with my faith recently, not so much my belief in the existance of God or Christ as the messiah but my faith, how strong it is, how much does it mean to me am I really Good enough to preach and teach in the name of Christ, who am i to point out the sins of others I have enough of my own to be concerned with I should indeed take the huge giant log out own eye before I proceed to take the splinter out of my brothers, That sort of thing.

So let me share with you all what I have learnt these past six months, this is probably more theraputic for me but I hope it is interesting for you.

I dont know if any of you have ever heard the bible described as a love story "the greatest Love Story" etc but so often it seems like a giant rule book a threatening outdated manuscript trying to scare people with hell and torment.... dont do that or you will go to hell and how often do parents and teachers use this to control children.... where the hell is the love in that!!!!

The bible reads like a horror story if your homosexual your going to hell, if your rich your going to hell, if you have killed someone your going to hell, sh*t man, even if you like bacon your going to hell.

Yes that God indeed is a vengful God, human beings make a mistake and we are banished from him and lets face it with all them rules, stipulations who of us can indeed expect to attain heaven, navarna, Valkarie call it what you will?

We are sinners, yes i am a sinner, yes you are a sinner the quicker we as human beings can accept that the faster we can move on, there is nothing we can do about it.

But the bible that Christians see is a love story, a story of True love, TRUE love. not some whimsical holywood romance. They see the imposiblity of the old testiment rules, that Vengful God.

But in the new testiment they not only see another side of God, but God is given a name. That name is not Jesus, but Love, god is love and love is God one and the same, the holy trinity , the father of love, the son of love and the spirit of love, 3 persons one love.

Jesus reveals this love to mankind, he suffers what he need not suffer in order that we do not need to suffer what we would have had to suffer had he not suffered what he did. Jesus died and went to hell so that we dont have to.... that is love.

What was it that brought him out of hell, what caused his ressurection, God..i.e love, Jesus was love personified, he was love in the form of a person, he was true love, true man.


When we love, that is God within us, That love shares the imortality of god because it is God, it is our love that is ressurected after death, it is our love that becomes a holy spirit and our hatred that is destroyed in the fires of hell, I am sure after we die we go through a process by which we become purged (purgatory) of our sinfulness, purified and made like the finest gold, the wheat seperated from the chaff.

When a man loves another man, is he going to hell, that love is going to heaven, when a woman loves her unborn child so much she would rather kill him that make him suffer her in ability to care for him, is she going to hell, no that love is going to heaven.

True Love is sacraficial, when one man loves another man and he is willing to sacrafice his social status, his familys respect, perhaps even his eternal life for the person he loves... is that not true love?

The homosexual act is a sin, but the love is 100% direct from God and will be ressurected.

Christianity is not so much about rules and regulations as people tend to think, its about love, what i believe to be true love, sacraficial love, the love Jesus showed for us and he asks each human being today what he asked Peter "do you love me?" Jesus was love, he loved us all but Jesus was a man too and like all human beings he wanted to be loved.... "do you love me?"

and when he was about to die he said, if you love me, you will follow what i command and he left us this new commandment.... to love each other as he loved us.

Yes Jesus was and is love, he is the way of love, the true love that leads to the ressurected life.


"love with all your heart, with all your mind, with all your soul"

"love your enemies"

"love your neighbour as yourself"

This message of love was what Jesus taught, this is why he was killed, why he was crucified, and this message of love is why christians are being chastised, riddiculed and accused of all sort of falsehoods... becuase when a christian points out the homosexual act is a sin, or abortion is a sin, he or she is expecting and appealing to a higher power with in all of us, love, god within us and the belief in the love that Christ has shown us, and a love for that love..i.e a love for Christ

So when a christian says homosexual act is a sin or abortion is a sin, he is not condemning anyone to hell but calling them to a love of Christ. Ineffect the christian speaks en personi christi, he/she speaks in the person of christ and asks "do you love me?"