Hello everyone, I have an issue that eating away at me. I can't believe I am saying this, but for the past two to three years whenever I masturbate, perverted images of my niece and nephews pop into my heard. I am scared, and don't know what to do. First and for most, I would never sexually abuse and molest an innocent child. And to make matters worse, when I pick them up sometimes, my penis gets a little hard, but its not out of enjoyment or excitement, it just happens. I think that I am an evil person, and I don't know why this is happening. I never had a hard time focussing my thoughts, and when this doed happen, I do cum to women, but as I am finishing up these fast images of them will pop in, and make me feel sick. Sometimes my nephews can be sexually perverse with one another, and when they act in these bad manners they stress me out and stick in my head. All my life, even as a kid reading comics, I wanted to be the good guy. You know the one that stands up to whats right, and contributes to the world. Instead I am turning into a bad person. I never took advantage of a child, and I'll admit that the only time I ever did something, which was in front of my sister when I was around the age of 15 or 16, and I joking. I said to my nephew, "my beard itches like crazy, your kneels are tiny, itc it". My sister looked at me, and said thats nasty. Then later I realized that was stupid, why would I think of that. Am I lacking a consciounce? As of now, I am a 20 year old college student, and want to lead a good and pure life, but with these sick thoughts I just don't know antmore.

Unfortunatley, I nevcer been with a woman, and never went as far as to kiss one. I suppose I secretly dislike myself. I am not even a chronic masturbater, and I get lonly natural urges like anyone else. This has to stop, whats wrong with me?