My sexual experiences with my first girlfriend, started at a party where I was drunk, and managed to make out with her. I donât remember what happened, but all of a sudden we were making out hardcore, and then we went upstairs. We got naked and I didnât have a condom, so we fooled around, I fingered her, she jerked me off, I didnât orgasm.
I stuck around the next day because Iâd never had a girlfriend, I felt pretty good that Iâd made it this far with a girl so I decided to keep her. Although in the morning when I saw her I thought to myself âI could do betterâ
After this every time she jerked me off it would hurt usually. Iâm circumsized, and parts of the head seem kind of like dry skin so maybe something is wrong physically. Either way, most of the sexual experiences we had were me fingering her or giving her head, then her jerking me off, then I would go to the washroom, killing the mood. That feeling was probably an orgasm on its way.
One time we were both heavy making out and humping each other. And this song was on, and she was singing to it, âtake me here, as I am, or have nothing at allâ, I didnât go all the way with her that night.
i learned a lot about how loose of a girl she was... the first dance i went to after we hooked up she was grinding all over some other guy. never being in a relationship before i thought this was how girls were. she told me about how horny she was in high school, and i didn't think girls were like that the way guys were. i hung out with her ex boyfriend quite a lot, some times (this was university residence) i'd head over to her place and she'd be with her ex. i was really confused. eventually i found out that she cheated on her boyfriend with me, but i didn't know this til the end. i thought those text messages was just an ex boyfriend still thinking about her.
i remember one time she talked about how much she missed this old boyfriend of hers.
Eventually when we did have sex, I woke up and started playing with her vagina and kissing her, then we got naked, and I tried putting my penis in her vagina but I couldnât find the hole, so I decided to ride her doggystyle. I wasnât even that horny, and it didnât feel like anything.
Eventually after my penis slipped out she said âsometimes it closes upâ and I was like ok, then we started making out a little. She said âyou were hitting my uterusâ and I said, âwell hello helloâ which made no ******* sense. Then as I held her and was kissing her I saw a single tear roll down her cheek.
I donât really want to have sex anymore.
i honestly could go abstinent and it wouldn't bother me, hell i've been doing it sense this one, last time. if i ever masturbate it's not because i was horny or wanted to, it's just because it was something to do.
do you think it would be healthier if i talked to a professional about this?
i think that if i was more sexually active or tried to build a meaning relationship, it might switch things around. but honestly my first time was just so bad i don't have any real motivation.
Hey Mister, what's more fun? Playing basketball with your best mates or playing with the kid you were forced to watch over?
Your first sexual experience was just with the wrong person from the start.
Go find a real girl you like and want to be with, not because she is willing to jerk you off, but because you feel incomplete without her. Find a girl like that and I promise sex will be a whole lot better.
forbidvalediction...i think that a HUGE part of your problem is your attitude. it's like you had a defeatest attitude before anything started...during all of it and definitely aferwards.
you can't expect someone to make your life a wonderland if you have a sucko attitude...really.
my suggestion is to remain celibate until you get your head together and decide what you REALLY want. if you want to sit in the corner and cry in your beer go ahead and do so by yourself. if you want to have a nice girlfriend and a new relationship, then go after your next relationship with an open mind and a POSITIVE mental attitude.
attitude determines altitude. how high you look determines how high you'll get. that having been said...just because you look at the sun doesn't mean you'll get there, but you might hit the moon at least and that's pretty good for an average person!