i am 17 and have had an eating disorder for the past 2 years, as hard as it's been for me to stop, i've tried to push past it. even though i'm only 5 feet tall and 105 lbs, i feel like i'm fat and disgusting. and even though i havent in awhile, i feel the urge to throw up after almost every meal. my 18th birthday is coming up and i really want to go shopping with my mom, but i'm so disgusted with myself i cant. i dont understand why i hate my body sooo much, but i do. has anyone overcome this or have any advice for me? i feel like no matter what my weight is, ill never be at peace with myself