a little over a year ago i tried acid for the first time;
and it was the only time ive ever done it or ever will.
i had an extremely bad trip.
my bad trip didnt start until i smoked weed;
but at the time i didnt even realize that i was smoking weed,
i couldnt remember much.
i started to have flash backs like crazy.
my whole body when numb i had no feeling.
i couldnt even tell when i had to use that bathroom.
i screamed on the top of my lungs many times that night.
i felt like i was dead but didnt know that i was dead.
i wanted and tried to kill myself just so that i would be dead and so the bad trip would stop.
it was the longest night of my life.
i didnt even know if i was breathing or not.
everyone kept telling me i was fine but i felt like they were lieing to me.
i just wanted it to stop so bad.

about a month after that one night i smoked weed and i started having flash backs of the night that i had the badtrip and it felt exactly like my bad trip.
i started freaking out but nobody knew what was happening and i couldnt believe that i felt like i did when i had my bad trip.

because of the bad trip i got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and i have panic attacks daily becuase of it,
although the bad trip happened over a year ago that night still haunts me and i think about it every minute.
it was a decision that will live with me forever.

since then ive been drug free and havent touched anything,
because whenever i go near any drug i have a panic attack just because of that night.

i now have to take prozac to control my anxiety.

acid affected my life more than anything else.