Asking for help hasn't worked Posted: 05-30-08 23:08pm
I'm a high school senior about to
graduate.
I had good grades, and even got accepted
into an Ivy League school, but recently
things are falling apart and I'm losing
everything that I worked for in the past.
I've had recurring emotional "crashes"
since as far back as I can remember. But I
made up for them as soon as I got out of
the brief episodes (which typically only
lasted for a night or two per several
weeks). That was how I'd been maintaining
schoolwork and the rest of my life up till
now. Lately, I just feel I've lost all
drive for work. The emotional episodes
that used to be short have gotten more
severe have extended into my daily life.
My grades have fallen to the point that I
am failing some classes, and even though I
feel bad about it, I can't get myself to
act. It's as if I don't care that I won't
be able to go to my dream university. I
also find that I can't concentrate at all.
Even reading a book now takes tremendous
effort, as the words just seem to scatter
in my head.
At this point I'm just too tired to even
cry. I feel blank and drained most of the
time... When I tried to talk about it to
my teachers, they only thought I was
anxious to graduate or having a case of
"senioritis" like many other people in my
class. I don't have any close friends to
talk to about this, and my busy parents
have always forgotten about what I
confessed to them about this condition.
Lately I've been getting angry or sad for
no reason at the sight of people. I hate
talking about this, because I've talked to
therapists, teachers, friends, and family
only to have them minimize the problem and
blow it off. I can't find the courage
anymore to talk to another person about
it.
I feel terrible every single day, because
I feel I'm ruining my own life. I just
don't know what to do.
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twilight_mist
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Posted: 05-31-08 09:54am
I'm glad that you've tried asking for
help, although your surroundings don't
seem to realize what's going on you seem
to really want to do something about it,
which is a good start.
It sound like you have a depression that
is building, and you should seek help.
It's really sad that your teachers and
parent don't respond to your confessions,
but if they don't, you need to find
someone else. Perhaps a professional
therapist. (yeah, I know - it's scary. I
haven't done so yet, but luckily I have a
very good friend I can talk to.) Anyways,
point is: You really should see someone
that has at least some idea how to help
you. - I don't know how that is over
there, but where I live that kind of help
is free of charge while you are a student.
Perhaps you should look up someone and at
least give it a try?
wish i could do something to help. - feel
free to PM me if you wish.
