For years now I have been very apathetic about life
However when I decided to read into apathy it is said that apathetic people tend not to have the will to do anything and that even getting up in the morning is a struggle and that this is linked with depression.
I really believe that I am an apathetic person, however I cant say that I find it hard to pick myself up and carry on, I don't get excited to see loved ones, I don't seem to get upset when people around me die or fall ill my typical responce to most situations is that I dont care.
So yea my question really is that am I actually depressed but somehow dont know it or is it possible to be apathetic but not depressed?
i don't know - i feel apathetic but having experienced depression in the past i wouldn't say my current feeling of apathy is linked to depression. For me it seems to be linked to not knowing what i want, largely because everything seems somewhat pointless. Im sure many people might think this a sign of depression but like you i dont have problems getting out of bed in the morning or picking myself up and carrying on, i just dont what to carry on with. I've noticed that as my ego has dissolved while growing older and growing up, my ambitions have diminished, even disappeared and now i am trying to find a new focus, a purpose, that is less egocentric. But I just can't find it, and the longer I exist in this space the larger the feeling of apathy.