I don't know why, but I am so depressed all the time, because I want to have a baby so badly. My fiancee and I have been together for almost 3 and a half years, lived together for a year and a half and are getting married May 10th. He doesn't want kids yet, which is fine, I completely understand, but I just wish that it was the time in our relationship where we can try.
It has been getting bad. I see my friends accidentally getting pregnant, and breaking up, and then I look at us, and I know that we could do it. It would be tough, but we could.
I have even been having dreams about it, about being prego and holding my child. Do you know how bad it feels to dream of your child, feeling the love for them, and waking up with them not there?
I also have very irregular periods, like maybe 2-3 a year, so I am always terrified of the thought of being infertile.
I know I am annoying my fiancee by talking about it, and how I want kids now, but I just can't get this out of my mind...anyone have any supportive stories? Like similar stories that ended up well...or am I just crazy? Lol, thanks!