Since I was 8 I had my 1st panic attack, and then at age 10 I started the episodes of panic attacks till today. I suffer from general anxiety disorder (GAD), which is having all sorts of phobias and panic attacks. I use to take control over it in the past, now things are out of control. It started with fear of being alone, elevators, driving, flying..etc which has a negative impact on my life.
6 month ago, I started the obssessive compulsive disorder OBC thing, it started with bad thoughts, now those thoughts are controlling my life, I no longer eat outside because I think the food is poisoned, I don't drink outside home, and sometimes I feel that my family is putting poison on the food, further more, I fear taking medications and think it will cause me something bad and I read the instructions inside it. I have seriouse health problems but do not take medications.
I went to people who work on tarrot, soul, stuff like this, and I found myself in a dillema, I was told lots of things about devils hunting me, and what shall I do to be OK. Sometimes I feel like screaming and running in the streets but I feel ashamed. I saw many many many shrinks but nothing good.
I don't know what to do really!!