At college we have to do different work placements, and my recent placement I had to go to I had got to catch a bus.
Now, I do NOT like buses, if i could, i would have just walked there, but it would have taken me like 1 hour to walk there. I feel as if I'm going to miss my stop or just something terrible is going to happen on my journey, and my heart beats fast and i go shakey, and just before i get on the bus i feel sick.
I'm fine on the bus if I am with a person i know, but on my own i absolutely hate it. I caught the bus a few times, but however I got moved to a different placement as they started to change my working times around and so it would mean i would have to change my schedule and I do not want to start all over again.
Do you think its a phobia of buses I have?
Or an anxiety problem?
I also hate being centre of attention, and i do not like to socialise with other people, and would rather be left on my own. I hate meeting new people, and feel as if someone is always going to crisicise me for something i say or do. Even when I'm going to talk to one of my tutors/teachers I have to plan what I'm going to say and have to be with another person, and even then I stutter. Plus I hate being in places on my own... so it could be a social anxiety disorder.
Its anxiety. I used to have the same fears about being the center of attention in a group of people i didnt know. Finally one day i just faced my fears and stopped worrying about what people thought about me. I still have panic attacks but its usually from medical problems. Good luck