Hey,
My name is Robert, I'm 17, 18 in less than a month. I feel like I'm losing it but I think (hoping) it is anxiety rather than some serious mental illness. I started feeling like this 6 days ago, well that's when i think it started, that's when i know i felt unwell anyway but i wasn't really panicky.. i just felt like i was sick; I had extreme fatigue. It has now progressed to intense worrying of becoming insane or already insane and i'm literally really scared and I just can't stop worrying about it. A bit over a week ago before I started feeling like this I did have marijuana, it was a very small amount (like 2 breathes in from a bong) but i had the most horrifying traumatic trip which could be related to this. It felt like i was trapped and in another world; i felt derealisation and depersonalisation and that's what i have been feeling like a bit too recently. I have done marijuana about 3 or 4 time before then but it never really hit me much, no trips or anything like that, i was just happy or scared. The 9 or so days after the trip i felt like my own self but now i don't and i'm just really scared of everything and people, even family. I feel like a different person sometimes and reading about all these mental illnesses on the internet just makes it worse i think. I try to keep telling myself that i'm fine and that it's just anxiety when i start thinking those irrational thoughts. I also feel extremely fatigued and it feels like my head is buzzing tonight and i feel slight dizziness when i walk around, i might have a headache or migraine. Last night i thought i had a tumor or that there was a bug inside my head eating my brain :\. It's also very hard for me to concentrate or remember things unless i try really hard. I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow and that's scarying me.. i keep thinking It'll turn out that i'm crazy. I just need someone to really comfort me and someone to tell me that i'm not insane. I also feel depressed. I have no idea how i'm going to get to sleep tonight.. last night was pretty hard as i went to bed at like 9pm, that is really early for me but i was very tired. Initially i was worrying but i somehow feel asleep but only to wake up again at 4 in the morning after a dream which wasn't that scary really. Then when i was trying to go back to sleep at 4am it was quite hard i had to put all these rational thoughts into my head and tell myself i was okay and it worked, which was strange because i felt my real self again and i was happy but that did not last long.. anyway i'm babbling on here but i did get back to sleep and woke up at 9am feeling normal at first but then as soon as i remembered about my condition i started worrying again. Please can someone tell me what they think it is and comfort me, this is freaking me out. I just want to feel normal again.