Hi guys,

I am an opera singer.. I love being on the stage but I find that I get really stressed and anxious about learning things on time and being able to excecute things correctly and stuff and I get really anxious about what my bosses will say etc etc and all the situations I am in. It is funny though as I dont get anxious when i have to go on the stage in front of thousands of people BUT when I get in front of a small auditorium of people I cant look at them.. I want to look at the floor... I find I cant get enough breath But it only happens in performances that are in small venues where I can see the people.

I dont know why I get so anxious.. It really upsets me as I try to stop myself but I cant stop my brain...

I also cant stop obsessing. my brain sings all day and is always thinking of things that I do wrong BUT I never think of positive things. When I am learning music I always get impatient with myself as it is not perfect. But I cant be perfect arrgghghgh...

I try so hard but I think I try too hard,,, but I dont know how to not try so hard.


I really wishe I could shut my brain off from getting down as it makes me really not want to go to work and i LOVE my job... it is my passion and my life...
Is there any way i can manage this stress...

another question is I am scared I am OCD with my singing.. could this be ?? or is it that i just try really really hard... and try to be right about everything hahahha

Thanks for listening i feel slightly better...

J