I wonder is this normal?
I am a staff nurse but i cant face work anymore .its funny cause i get on with all the people there (it took me a while to settle in) . im normally a person who prefers to be on my own. I feel anxious mixing with people and when im talking to someone (not the few people im close with ie my family and boyfriend close friends) I am dwelling on how the conversation is going, what they are thinking about me, is what im saying silly or intelligent enough and what am i going to say next. Sometimes im ok and as the day goes on it gets better, im worse for it in the morning, i hate attention, then sometimes i love it . I dont have these feelings with the patients, well sometimes when im alone with them and there is silence around like in a private room. This is why im so dissalusioned with my job. like the job itself is stressfull which does not help but mostly i hate being surrounded by people all day long. People would not guess this about me i dont think altough i feel they must know sometimes im uncomfortable but because im not always like this people may not notice. I dont really have the gift of the gab that you are meant to have in nursing. I feel like this outside of my job too. I hate meeting people off guard. I worry about what to talk about and it takes over my mind and im so annoyed at myself for feeling like this. Its weird cause i feel like a well balanced person. I just wanted to know do you think i may have a problem or what can i do to help myself .