hello, my name is kayle and i have well i don't know what i have...on November 1, 2009 i smoked a stronger type of marijuana. the rooms were spinning, i was sweating, i couldn't remember things, things didn't feel real to me at all,my heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest, i could not feel anything at all i was completely numb, i had bad confusion, i didn't know who i was or where i was, i was extremely dizzy and i kept falling over i could not walk straight, i felt like i was dreaming or in a dream, things were moving in slow motion, i couldn't eat anything without feeling like i was going to puke, i don't know there was a lot of crazy things. i thought it would have went away in like some hours but it never did.when i would try to go to sleep it was horrible i couldn't stop shaking inside and out.when i woke up it was still just as bad. even when i woke up the next day after that...it was really bad for a whole week. then it kept going on. i still felt high like things were unreal and this was my first time smoking marijuana that was strong . i smoked it one other time but it NEVER did any of this and i went back to normal. now even today i feel like i'm still not real or i'm still not normal it is gotten way better now but i still have side effects of dizziness,feeling unreal, not being able to understand people sometimes, the derealization,i get out of breathe sometimes but my heart never beats fast like in a panic attack though, things look weird to me and this all is permenent. i have a lot more symptoms but i can't think of all of them right now .....my mom says that they are panic attacks and i think i have some anxiety too but i know this just isn't that sometimes when i go to sleep and i wake up i feel like i don't know what to do or in the middle of the night if i wake up i can't breathe or i forget to breathe and it feels like i don't have to breathe. this one day i felt like i couldn't breathe at all when i woke up and when i get tired my body and mind and symptoms get worse and i can't function properly. i feel sometimes like i'm going to go crazy which is i think is a panic attack and then i have these one attacks well i don't know what they are but i feel like i'm detached from the world and my body and i feel like i am in some other world or i'm not on earth. it is soooo scary...am i slowly dieing? or what do i have please....i'm soo scared one day i will die. don't know what this is and i never felt this was only after i smoked that marijuana. please ..what is it.........???? i feel sometimes like i go in slow motion also. sometimes i still forget things and i really can't remeber things . i NEVER feel normal EVER!! what is this?what is wrong with me? what is going on?do i have permanent brain damage . i also use to be able to eat a lot but when i smoked the marijuana i can't eat a lot. i also don't feel like i am all there in my body. i feel like i am dead but i know i am living. will this go on for the rest of my life . i feel like i am dieing...i don't know what to do. things sometimes feel like i can't understand them sometimes.please you have to help.....i never feel like i am me.i was 15 when i smoked and i am 16 now.am i slowly going brain dead? what is happening to me. please i need answers. i need to know i will be okay.
I would suggest going to your doctor for a physical exam to rule out any physical ailment that mimics panic. After doctor's assessment/suggestions, you may want to proceed with mental health counseling to deal with anxiety.
Most likely, you are healthy, and would benefit from relaxation, visualization, mindfulness-based work to calm your racing thoughts/mind.
I know school is out soon, but check with your insurance provider and definitely talk to parents about your concerns.
It's also a strength that you are reaching out for help, and bothered by your symtoms.
Lastly, there are always options in life, and this is a situation that can be remedied.
It sounds like the marajuana you smoked was laced with something, I first thought is might be mushrooms, years ago I smoked a joint and had hallutionations. It was horrible. It lasted for hours. I learned the next day it was shrooms. I am wondering if yours might have been laced with something years ago they called angel dust. I have know idea what they call it now. Their are so many dangerous drugs out their and unfortunately some of them can cause serious problems. Please dont smoke anymore. I would suggest you see your doctor, explain what is happening to you just like you have here. He can do all sorts of blood tests that may give him information about what might be going on with you. I am really wondering if your experience that lasted so long did not cause post traumatic stress diorder. You may still be carrying that fear around with you and thats why you are having all these anxiety attacks, I would also consider seeing a therapist. You need to find out what is causing these strange symptom. They should not be taken lightly so do what you can to have your Mom take you seriously and take you to see a doctor. In the meantime I will pray for you.