Ok, I've had a past of issues with food. I don't consider myself as anorexic- my eating habits go through stages. A few weeks of eating under 500 calories a day, back to normal eating, over-thinking everything I eat, keeping track of what I eat, etc...
Some reasons for these habits- pressure from being an athlete, sometimes I punish myself for doing something wrong, stress and depression. My mom has struggled with anorexia and bulimia since she was 12 and has also had instances of binge eating especially at night- M&Ms or ice cream in particular.
The past couple weeks now, I have been experiencing the binge eating side of the eating disorder world. I have definitely been over-stressed and depressed lately and, once I'm home for the night, I just keep finding things to munch on. It's like I can't stop. I've noticed a bit of weight gain- maybe two or three pounds and I am really losing it. I am not used to dealing with over-eating and have this extreme sense of guilt and failure after I do. I don't want to go back to over-thinking and under eating either, but I need to snap out of the constant need to be eating!
Has anyone else dealt with over-eating after a past of anorexia/under eating?? How do you find a medium!?
(I am a 22yr old female, 112lbs, 5'4", college runner, somewhat of a perfectionist and overly stressed!)
Thanks for listening.