Right now I am in a outpatient program for my eating problems. I was diagnosed to have Anorexia with Bulimic Tendencies... I know I have a problem. It is just really hard to accept it. The past 5 years have been hard. I started restricting my food in take, but soon it got out of hand. I started over exercising and starving myself. When I got tired of that I went on to abusing laxatives. I never could throw up. I tried that. I shoved a toothbrush down my throat, but I only started crying and dry heaving. Nothing else except the rare handful of spit up. I am fifteen now and have been doing all that since I was ten. I am on a food plan and have weekly therapy sessions, but I have been doing something else. I recently started chewing and spitting my food. On an average day I will eat three meals about three hundred calories each and take more food into the bathroom with me to chew and spit into the toilet. Will this do any damage to my organs or to myself? Could i have ruined my physical growth do to the years of exercising my bad habits? Do I really have an eating disorder? I am 5 foot 5 inches and weigh at this moment 104 pounds am I over weight? Can you give me an estimate to around how many calories I should be having a day? I am sorry if this is an odd post... I am really confused right now just about life in general...