I've been dieting for probably about a year but about a month ago I started doing things like skipping meals and constantly looking in the mirror. I was eating around 400 calories a day and it was the first time in my life that I felt good about myself and my body. But my weight started dropping and now I'm in treatment for anorexia. My nutritionist is making me eat 3500 calories a day and I deepest and disgusting. The more I eat, the bigger my stomach gets and it just makes me want to crawl into a whole and die. The truth us I'm not really concerned with numbers. I would love to be a healthy weight but I want to be thin. I realize it's not healthy to have bones sticking out, so I just want to be healthy-thin and toned. Does anyone have any advice or suggestions about any of this? Thanks.
Re-feeding can be a very uncomfortable process, have you discussed your ideal weight with your nutritionist? when you have the weight established that you know you have to get up to in order to be a healthy weight, you can relax in the fact that no one is going to make you go any higher than that, also - your anorexic thinking may change as you put weight on, this might scare you, but it's a good thing, it means that you may have a better perception of your body. but myostic is right, focus on your mental health first, and then you will be able to make a better decision about where you want to be with your body