A little background. My smallest weight was 120 pounds at 10 (if I'm lucky). Eating had always been an issue, I had struggled my entire life almost with weight. By the time I was 16 I stopped eating altogether and managed to weigh 160 (weighed 200). I still had a problem, just didn't know it. I was told you don't eat as many calories as you take in and exercise. However, my mind if I didn't eat any calories and exercise I would lose the weight I need. I didn't know it was unhealthy for me until my dad explained to me what I was doing. So I tried my best to do it right. However, eating has been a problem for me. Fast forward to today 10 years later. I had weighed 275 when I found out I was preggo with my daughter. I was then diagnosed with a thyroid problem. Once they put me on hypothyroid meds I automatically went down to 235 and weighed that until my daughter was born. I then went down to 230. All this time I was eating no more than 2000 calories (much the time eating about 1800). Then I had gallbladder surgery and went back up to 255. I had struggled then went back to 245. April 16 of 2008 went on phentermine. Now fast forwarding to now, I am dealing again with self image and am struggling with binge, purge. I had thought this had passed, now I am off phen because I know that until I get myself in check I will again suffer with these problems. As of now I am struggling with not binging and purging. I am trying a healthy 1200 calorie diet, but find I am struggling with it. Is it usual for eating disorders to come back after years of dealing with it. Anyone, who has experienced this does it ever go away?