i just started this so i'm not 100% sure how to do this.. well my friends have told me that i have changed a lot since last school year. i have so many mood swings. i have cryed and yell at my friends for no reason! i have no idea why i'm doing this. when i feel as if i hurt one of my friends or family members i get mad then lock myself in my room and cry. after i usually cut deep gashes in my left arm and sometimes my legs. i try to hide these things from my parents because i know that the last thing they want to deal with is me. they discovered a couple of my cuts but i lie and say that i "Fell".. my best friend is getting tired of my mood swings and does not like me hurting myself, she is encouraging me to seek medical help.. i know my mom does not care about my problems, so i keep my feelings hidden. i have some money saved up of my own, and i was wondering if theres any type of pills, or shots i could get with out my mom. i have thought many times of just ending everything. this world wont miss me, my parents don't care. i have came close to actually killing myself multiple times.. but i never manage it.. i really need help..