Hey there.
Firstly you need to start trying to stabilize yourself if you are ever going to cope with the pregnancy and parenting.
Under the circumstances you are in that is not going to be easy so you will have to try and stay strong. The last thing you want to do is bring a baby into the world when the babies mother is thinking of suicide. How fair would it be to bring a baby into this world and then take away its mother????
You need to talk to your councillor about everything you are going through and start putting everything into perspective. At the moment you are trying to deal with too much at the one time and that is what is making you so confused.
Secondly you need to start building a support network. Whether that be family and friends or even just some people to talk to on here. There are many people out there (and on this site) that have a similar background and are of similar age to you. There are also people like me who are happy to listen any time you need an ear.
With regards to your family. It is only early days. Many families (especially the family of the girl) have a hard time dealing with the fact that there young daughter is pregnant. Many times this will all change the minute the baby is born. There is something about that little bundle of joy coming into the world that turns us all into soppy cryers. You may find that everyone will be there when the baby comes into the world.
With regards to the father. He is only young himself. We have all heard that girls mature faster than us blokes so he may need a bit more time than you to really get a graspe on it. It sounds by what you said that you guys are in love. So tell him how you feel and just give him a little time to catch up.
Hope everything works out for you and you get all the help you need.
xoxoxox
Drop me a line if you ever need to talk to someone.
