First off, I'm 26 years old.

I noticed this a long time ago, really dont know how long its been going on at this point, at least a year. I looked at it a couple times and just assumed that part of the anus was thick and was supposed to feel that way.

now that i finally got my hands dirty (no pun intended) and got a good feel of it, it wasn't just a bump its like a rod that goes down i don't know how far...I push in til it starts to hurt and I cant reach the end of it, I pinch and i feel it still goes further...in the mirror, I think I remember the lump being a slightly different color, blue-ish with the normal pink/red color around it.

is this a hemorhoid or is it more serious?

I have a history of bad bms, reflux, and other gastrointestinal difficulty. I frequently have "neverending wipes" if i don't consume enough fiber or take some psyllium husk, and usually there is a tiny amount of blood when i have to wipe