you should really talk to your parents about this so they can get you help. If you dont trust talking to them perhaps a counselor at school. You can feel free to write me anytime. that way we can talk more private. I have three younger sisters close to your age so maybe i can help out more. Feel free to contact me any time.

(hug)

umm...

why are you feeling so sad though???

shade

That's one of my problems I have no idea why I'm so messes up at the moment. I'm thinking about it a lot cause if I can figure out why it might help me stop it.

As for talking to my parents I don't think I could. My parents are good like but I just can't reallytalk to anyone about this which is one reason I'm here

i guess it will be hard to help you if you don't actually know the reasons...

:/

I know
I'm mostly just venting at the moment. If I figure out why I'll post them.

One thing I'm wondering about is did lonleyness (probaly spelled wrong) help cause my depression or did I get lonely from becoming isolated with depression and stuff.

So I might aswell post possible reasons

1. Lonley
2. Have realised no meaning to life in general
3. I'm smart and mature so most people my age hate me or think im wierd or both
That's all I can think of right now i'll post more later

If you cant talk to your parents you should really go to someone at school. Although right now you don't feel like talking to anyone will help, it will. Our brain sends signals for everything we do and feel. Sometimes the signals mis-fire and tell us to be sad and we really dont know why we feel that way. Sometimes something as simple as exercising can help the brain create a chemical that makes us feel happy. Sometimes medicines can help our brain create that chemical to. My best friend was depressed and got medicine and feels like a whole new person now. I understand that being 14 can be hard and especially if people think you are weird. Maybe looking into different clubs or teams at school could be helpful. Look into different hobbies for example dancing, acting, volunteering at a hospital or nursing home. Think of things that used to make you happy, and try to get involved in them. Maybe a part-time job would help, look in a town away for a job and maybe you will meet new people. You may not have the motivation to do many of these things, but try exercising before trying any of these things and note to yourself how you feel after exercising for about 30 min, as long as you are healthy enough for exercise. There is always a reason to live and you deserve to feel good about yourself.

im 14 and im still not sure whats up,
i feel realy down all the time. i cant get my self to go school i get forsed but is like i mentaly cant force myself to do anything. sometimes i just feel so down i get dizzy and headachs all the time and always cry. I have self harmd befor but not to kill myself it was just because i wonted something to take over the feeling of no one cears about me. school is realy hard for me and i did start to bunk leasons because i felt like i couldnt stand to be in a class full of people that talk aroud me. it makes me dizzy and feel sick. i just cant force myslef to go into leasons. i dont have a very easy homelife and maybe thats part of it but i dont know. i have spoke to a school worker but im not sure how to say i think im depressed. i have resently got in with a new group of friends and they no theres something wrong.

is there anything that is making you feel that way?
you are 14 years old and your hormones are out of wack. you should talk to your parents about how you feel, and make them listen to you.
you also can talk to your counselor at school to talk about how you feel, and they may have more ideas about what you can do.
one or two friends is all you need in life. you can have many acquaintances. but usually when your depressed you dont want to get out of bed, dont want to be around anyone, cant concentrate, your grades can suffer.
so please talk to someone.

yea like 12-14 is a tricky age, but i dunno man you should be fine, life is like this sometimes. I get questioning meaning. look ghandi even said Everything in life we do is futile, but we must do it anyway. Spice your life up a little man, run up to someone in class and kick them in the nuts, easy to make friends that way, cut loose for a little bit till you get some enjoyment back in the monotomy of life in general. peace.