Well i will just tell the most important facts of my life, i lost my husband and baby boy (a month old), six months ago in car accident. I survive AML when i was 5 years and i manage to stay in remission 20 years and now with everything it came back , i'am hopeless i cant decide if get treatment or just die. writting this sounds awful and i am totaly sure of what i am saying any ideas??
First of all I'm really sorry to hear about your baby boy and husband. Nothing that anyone says or does will bring them back but even though you won't see them again they have become a part of you. your legs are their legs your heart is their heart. When you cry they cry with you and when you smile they smile too. I know that it feels hopeless and impossible to believe this but that is how they live now. If you fight this disease they will fight it with you you wont be on your own, if you survive they live on trough you. Even though you can't hold them physically your souls are connected. I truly believe this. They didn't choose to die it was tragedy that took their lifes away. If they could've chosen they would most certainly have stayed here. You on the other hand have the choice to fight it or just let yourself go. What do you feel like doing from the bottom of your heart?
Fight for your life.There is nothing more important than life.When we go we go for good.Your death wouldn't bring your loved ones back.But choosing life instead of death you make sure that they'll always be remembered.They would surely want you to live and be happy.Hold your head up,you might see the sun is still shining!