I am the spouse of a guy addicted to Ambien.
I am currently trying to talk to all his doctors, counselors, etc. They do not "LIVE" with him. I do. The doctors are just prescribing him these meds taking his word for truth. He is an ADDICT. He tells them what they want to hear.
I called his mental health doctor and informed her of how it was affecting my husband at home. He walks around like he is "STONED", "HIGH", as a kite. Groggy, poor coordination, bumping into walls, extremely "EXTRO-verted", no inhibitions at all, talking about sex in front of our children as if he and I were alone.
I have moved out of our main house and gotten an apartment a few miles away. He is going to drug and alcohol rehab, mental health for depression, and he and I are going to marriage counseling.
I believe he is just going through the motions to pacify me and his employers. He goes. But he lies.
I was not aware of the seriousness of his addiction, of the "ADDICTION" at all, until Christmas Day.
He drove our kids to grandmas house an hour away. I stayed home sick. The three older kids started sending me text messages about daddy. Is he drunk? He can't keep his eyes open. He is swerving into other lanes. He is driving irratically.
Then HE HIT THE RAIL ALONG THE HIGHWAY! He is pulled over on the side of the road looking at the damage! I am calling him, he sounds detached. Everything is okay. I am screaming at him to let our 16 year old drive. "No" he says, "I am okay". He continues to drive. I have my oldest texting me the rest of the way to make sure he is doing okay. She tells me he is doing "better" after he hit the rail. Brand new car, entire drivers side scraped along the rail.
Next I get a text saying that he drove the front left tire off into the drainage ditch on grandmas drive way. That daddy broke the car trying to reverse it out of the ditch. Car was smoking.
I had by then jumped into my car and followed them to grandmas house. Told the kids in "NO WAY" to get back into the car with daddy.
Long story short? I flushed the Ambien down the toilet before I left the house. When we all returned, he in his car, me and the kids in mine, he went BERZERK! when he found out I had flushed them down the toilet.
He was sreaming and yelling in my face for me to call 911 to get an ambulance to come get him and take him to the hospital to get more Ambien.
This is the man I married. He and I would watch and listen to "THOSE" 911 phone calls people make? You know right?...those unbelievable 911 phone calls? When you listen to them you are thinking how much of a "TOOL" the people are that are calling in?......yes..those calls?
I looked at my husband and said "HONEY!...THEY ARE GOING TO RECORD YOU!!" "THEY ARE GOING TO RECORD THIS PHONE CALL!"...he was out of control, he didn't care, get an ambulance there NOW!
I was on the phone with the 911 operator "911..what is your emergency?"...I hesitated...then said.."..Ummmm....my husband wanted me to call to get an ambulance out to pick him up." The operator said "what is the emergency?"...I paused...and said..."..umm?....I flushed his Ambien down the toilet and he wants an ambulance to take him to a hospital to get some more".
(can you imagine the look on my face right now?)
It was at that moment...that is hit me. He was like a cocaine addict, a heroin addict, a meth addict. I took away his drug...and he wanted it....NOW!
It was the first time that I knew he was addicted like a drug addict to Ambien.
I believe he is taking them recreationally. He takes them during the day to get the high. When he takes them at night he adds Bacardi or Vodka in shots, two, three, and four shots.
He is diagnosed with sleep apnea. His breathing is irregular and at times he stops breathing all together at night..."WITHOUT" Ambien..."WITHOUT" Alcohol. Then he adds both?.....it is very scarey for me. I am afraid I am going to wake up next to a cold body.
I just look at him now. I do not know how he...how "we" got here. Is his life SO BAD?....that he just wants to turn off? That is not even a question anymore. It is a statement now.
On few occasions, he is sober. I catch a glimpse of the guy I married. He is smart, quick witted, awesome sense of humor, awesome dad, great with the kids, and when he looks at me?.....he is REALLY...looking....at me.....he is "with" me. Not doped up, drugged out, high, stoned.
I get mad, angry, sad, withdrawn. He makes his choice to take that...away from me. Every time he takes an Ambien. Every time he drinks his alcohol.
He takes "that" away from me.
By choice.
It is sad.
Yes. My husband is addicted to Ambien. It is very serious. I don't think our marriage is going to survive. He is going to counseling. But I don't think he is taking it seriously.
I leave and go stay at the apartment. The next day he acts as if ABSOLUTElY NOTHING is wrong.
WE are married!
I have my OWN apartment now!
"WHAT" is it that he does NOT SEE!?
He is losing me.