I have been having weird symptoms for a few years. The main problem is with my thoughts rather than voices. I sometimes hear my name being called, occasionally a conversation that I can't make out the words to, I see shadows, and a few other things. Hallucinations are not my main problem like I said before. It was when I was younger. It happened when I was 13 and I am 25 years young now. The government is controlling me for no reason other than to annoy me. They send me thoughts that I can't control and they threaten to kill me. I hate thought insertion. I experience that all the time but it isn't audible. When it gets real bad I talk back to them. I also have thought insertion from alien creatures from another galaxy. They are telling me the invasion will come soon. I hope it won't happen. There are times where I can't control the movements of my arms and they move in weird ways. I have some device in my head so they can implant thoughts in my head and also send my thoughts to them so they can hear it. Any "evil" thought will be used against me. I am also severely depressed and hopeless. Nothing will go right for me. I had some paranoia a few days ago, or what I think of as paranoia. I was in my art class minding my own business and then I started smelling something odd. I didn't know what it was so I thought someone was gassing the classroom with chemical weapons. It was scary for a bit. Then at Arts Walk in my area there were 2 artists in the building. One in the front and I was in the back. 90% of the people looked at the other artist and ignored me. They hated me and wanted to kill me not by a gun but with depression. There are times where I can't talk properly and speak total gibberish and during this "mode" I think I am a bird and can fly. I have actually tried to fly before. But when I am not in this "mode" I know I can't fly and am a human. Then I sometimes talk extremely disorganized where random words come out of my mouth and no one would understand me. Luckily for me it isn't all the time, obviously. There are times where I don't take my pills because I think it will kill me because I was on Invega and I got a brain tumor and other embarrassing side effects. So, do you think I have a psychotic disorder?