more & more i wonder if i have ocd it always use to be a joke between friends & family but i love clean & i cant relaxe untill things are how i like it. i only do a big clean once a week but i try to vaccume or quick dust (thats what i call it) every day & every thing has to be in a certain symetrical order all the time or its a mess to me i dont get real aggitated when i cant do it but thats because i do it anyway (for example my boyfriend wont want me to vaccume i will anyways)and i never let him clean or do househild chore because in my eyes its not the right way.some times when i am cleaning or picking up i think if someone comes into my house to hurt me if everything is clean & perfect the police could find the intruder or evidence better because... well i dont know i just think it would help. other things that make me think i may have this is i always make lists, i dont like my food to touch i try to make as much of my life perfect weather its cleaning organizing ect. it helps me feel in control. when i was younger i was just a a neat freak (my mother is a messy person)but as i get older some things have gotten worse it hasnt taken over my life but im affraid these tendancies will get worse