I am a 21 yr old boy! I think im always sad, thinking all the time! Enjoyment, happiness, confidence, joy have been vanished from my life. I was not always like that , but i have become like that. My Personality has doomed and i have lost myself. I dont know , what to do. I think some things of my past have done this to me , or there is an extreme guilt about all that , or i have done something bad and have hided' it from my loved ones , which maybe i feel is a lie and kind of trust and faith betrayel , or i feel i have broken someone's heart and now mine is broken!! I really dont know, I have become a dumb! I dont enjoy or go out too much and i smile fake and laugh from a broken heart! Lowered my personality and guts zero'd! Or i feel highly depressed all the time! I dont think i need a special treatment , cuz i feel its all useless and for time being, but i want to change myself! or maybe i have become all alone and extremely reserved, conservative, shy and self-indulgent ! I cant always be like this! can i change ? I am depresed and brooken hearted at the same time! What to say more, now!