I was taking anti-depressants for about three years and have been off them for almost a year now but have been struggling with depression and thoughts of suicide. I don\'t want to go back on the pills because they make me feel like I don\'t feel anything, but then I don\'t want to feel like this anymore. I\'m 22, live at home and my parents don\'t think I\'m lazy when really most of the time I have trouble just getting out of bed.