I am an international student studying in the U.S..I feel so depressed and lonely all the time, even before I came to the U.S., when I think of how alone I am. .

I have trouble making friends. I am shy, have trouble starting conversations and keep it going. People also tend not to start conversations with me. Even when they do, I would have problems replying. Even my family have trouble talking with me. I want to have a connection with someone, but it's hard. So far, I have never really connected with anyone,even my family.

My family's nice to me. But they could tell how lonely and unhappy I am, and that I have no friends. They have difficulty speaking to me about anything and struggle to keep a conversation going with me... oh and my parents are divorced. My mother chased me out of her house about two years ago, and have since tried to contact me but I have never answered her call...My dad is paying for my education in the U.S. and he have trouble making ends meet..

my interests are..playing games..surfing the internet...that;s basically it..

I hate this feeling of being alone. I have tried to better myself for years and so far I have yet to make even one friend who I could just call and talk about anything. A classmate once commented that he could only talk "serious" stuff with me. Since then, I do try to make jokes when I talk to people but that doesn't help me to "connect" with people.

I see people making friends so easily.. wish I could do that.. I do feel that people perceive me as being a worthless person to befriend with..There really is nothing that keeps me from wanting to be alive at all, besides my family..Can someone please tell me why I should keep on living when it seems like I will have to spend my entire life alone.. not connecting with anyone...