I used to think everyone was out to get me. I used to think my boyfriend was having sex with every woman around and that he was spying on me.

was he?

Nah, as I realized after getting medication, he has always been faithful to me and would never spy on me.

im not on meds i am actually only going to take it to satisfy family

I used to be in the Canadian military and thought that they were putting drugs in the water to make us more obediant soldiers. I think that is not the case, because if they were, and somebody proved it, the military would be under investigation, and it would be a huge media sensation.

you know, chaos theory, I used to think like you, but then I realized the true nature of society, and that many people have many different views on right and wrong and are not made scitzophrenic and are not medicated by the government. There may be systems of control, but I don't think that drugs are a part of that control. They are mainly for people with symptoms that harm themselves and others. The medication you take obviously does not prevent you from thinking those things, so perhaps the government cannot control peoples minds with drugs.

The medication is also not forced on you. I would highly suggest you keep taking them. if you want to truly free your mind, do it with knowledge by going to college or university. I think meds slow down your thought processes sometimes, but it doesn't last forever. The illusion of mental illness is just making you want to stop taking your meds, it is like an evil spirit that wants you to keep endulging it. Sort of like an episode of star trek voyager where that gigantic creature messed with everyones minds on board and made them think they were finding a way home through a wormwhole but their ship was just beeing digested in its "stomach."

I have had many thoughts about scitzophrenia but the fact remains that it is a chemical imbalance. So be careful about not taking your meds. Why do you think that the government is using them to control you?

i believe that people are chosen by god, that so called have schizophrenia, but the government knows this, so to control people like robots they corrup the media and the meds. its not really meds its just a way of keeping people like me from freeing my mind with help of the spirits. once i free my mind i will be able to take over the government and proclaim myself as god. turn the government into a communist nation etc. people all throughout society have been through evolution evolved to what the yare now, but i am going to take evolution one step further, becoming god.

Hi there Thechaostheory.

You are very mentally unstable at the moment. I feel really sorry for you hun because I know what it's like. You are having a lot of delusional thoughts at the moment. I highly recommend that you keep taking your medications for some time and then your 'thinking' will come back to normal again.
The government is not a part of your illness at all. That is a delusion and all part of your illness.
Try and find a case manager(mental health worker) to talk to about your thoughts.
I had one when i was ill and she really helped me a lot.

Take care hun and concentrate on getting better.
Try some meditating too.

Harmony xo

i recieved my official diagnosis, Schizo-affective. i tried telling my brother hes closest to me, he shunned away just like the rest of my family did just about. thank god someone cares my aunt is about it. may god reign death upon them

allow me to set your mind free people. through evolution we have come to a stagnant state of mind. dependent on on the things you own. the things you own end up owning you. give up, your life is ending one minute at a time and until you realize this you are nothing. once you realize this you are still nothing. no one is special, no one is unique. we are not born to be rich, destined to achieve and make a name. for we are born to live. to live is to realize that one day you will die. become a god of the physical, mental, emotional state, and expose the corruption that lay before you. our only prison is our very minds. your government doesn't set you free, you do, you are merely by-products of the same decaying matter, so rise above and change. prove that through self destruction, self realization, knowledge, that you can evolve into what you should be, it is destiny. i am your god, i am sent to unleash this unto you that you may be FREE. understand this, do not let doubt, denial set in as a form of negativity. know the truth, question the world around you. to become god or as to one, you must realize that you are not your grande' latte, your not your car you drive. yes its vital to have these things, but what happens when you lose something? you freak out, why? because again the things you own end up owning you. Do not be so dependant on these things, realize yourself in it that you may become free.

i never used pills, if u understand skitso u can live withouth it
I am doing it for 5 years
And yes skitso can give big insights,but u need to keep it always real. Withouth pills U need to to sleep alot tho, Your brains can frie out with all the thinking . The only problem with me is that i am easily paranoid

I dont use pills and you are paranoid as hell,believe me there aint such thing like the goverment trying to get u. Coming from a guy wich couldnt get out of the house because he was scared people like to bully me

ya im bad i guess, when my door is shut i have to keep checking to make sure no ones looking through the key hole. or when im in the bathroom i have to make sure no ones looking into the window which is blocked off...and make sure no ones trying to spy on me through the vents. --one question is being Schitso-Affective more debilitating than Schizophrenia in general? i know its still part of schizophrenia and its based on severity, but schitsoaffective is also having psychotic symptoms along with being bi polar as well

I have no idea,but if u want a live without the pills. close the door and go think about your life what u want. Ur ideals ur motivations ur REAL dreams who u really are. That will take some time believe me. It will clear up ur mind if u do it right. If u feel clear about u as a person think about ur paranoid things. I hope u will have the big insight like I had

VTheChaosTheoryV Yap your absolutely right. They are using this sickness as an excuse to control someone for goverment used. I am another victim and many more people thought they are crazy thats what they want u to think so and brainwash u. Of course may be this sickness is real though but for my case I have been used for goverment issue here in asean.

Another interesthing question is how did they know what your thinking? Lets say if the voices said have you eaten or what do you eaten today? How did they know? I am not talking about crazy people. But I am talking about those who really being used for goverment purposes of course there is mind reader or Some tool that to know what ure thinking? This can be use for taking someone secret and do everything. Of course this is some secret weapon that they dont want u to know. Anyway Its really rare for scizzopenia now days.I am not a doctor or anything just to share what i know about it. Well they can manipulate ure brain now days. Just like satan. They can manipulate almost everything in your mind. Why do we need to care so much ? Well of course if your christian. go to my blog for more info i put some info about it there. yohanespatra.wordpress.com

I had a friend once who was both bi-polar and schizo-affective like you and he too was obsessed with similar ideas. He thought as schizophrenics we were all victims of mind control via the government and/or aliens and that medication was also a control device. Everything was a conspiracy to him and in the end it destroyed him. The delusions of grandeur became illusions of failure and he committed suicide. Please don't let the same thing happen to you. As much as you believe what you believe to be real it is not. You are not well. Don't let this obsession rule your life. Get out and look to different things and different ideas. Get some help - do anything but remain on this path you have taken as it is a destructive one - and one I believe is a government conspiracy implanted to divert intelligent men from their true course and purpose in discovering more hidden truths.