i dont know if anyone will read this of if they will care.
i have been with my partner for 2 years and i love her ever so much it really hurts to imagine a life without her in it.
but when im really lonely or depressed i talk to other girls. she really hates this as i cant turn to her or tell her how i feel. now she wants to break up and my world is crumbling, i cant hold it together for long. i dont want to trouble her with my problems. i dont know why i do it maybe i like the attention of someone else maybe i feel she cant help maybe its something different all together. i know this is all my fault and really hate myself for it and i dont blame her for wanting to leave.
i dont have many friends and the ones i do have, have their own problems so i feel cant count on them and i dont trust my family members to keep my problems secret..
i really want to change myself for her i really want her to be the only one, the one i can tell anything to. what can i do to become someone better.
i have lost faith in myself now, i dont want to be seen by anyone i feel so shameful.
Hi, You mentioned that you love the person whom you have been dating for 2 years. While i don't doubt that you do, you need to find a way to occupy your time when you are "feeling lonely" other than "talking to other girls".
This would hurt anyone. Especially if that person loves you too. How old are you? what are your hobbies? what are the things that your friend and you share as things you both like? Why not try doing some of those things together?
Try to involve yourself in an activities that leaves you little or no time for other girls or any other thing that is bad for your relationship. Real friends are hard to find these days, but they still exist. So, when you find someone with whom you would love to spend the rest of your life with, you got to show it in your actions.
Although doing the wrong thing may be easier, the right act yields more positive, long-lasting results.
Stop beating upon yourself, and start thinking on the ways in which you can fix the problem, the first of which is to ask God for help. As you alone can not do it.
I hope you will try and not give up, there is hope still.
i am 10 yrs old and i hate my life ever since my dog came into my life he chews up everything i loved (not my mum and dad) today he chewed the the thing that stole my heart away and i wouldn't stop crying and ever since tht dog came into my life i feel like i get no attention at all and tht my mum loves him more then me! and please don't tell anyone that i am under the age of thirteen i want somewhere where i can express myself with all my emotions