I have kind of some similar problems. I feel I am snapping anytime soon..but I know I cannot snap because I have seen some of my friends 'snapped' and never ever been 'normal' again. If I snap, I will make my parents sad. If I end my life, I would make them even sadder. I have pressure from my family to succeed, to earn lots of money, to win my relatives, so that I won't get laughed at and looked down at. I am going to be jobless soon and I have failed in many job application. I feel very worthless! I want to be a school teacher but my parents won't let me do it. They say it is a waste as I am a doctor. I do not want to upset them yet I am upsetting myself. They have spent so much money and effort on me, and they have all their dreams on me so that I can bring them out of the 3rd world country...but I have no ability to do so. All I want in my life is a simple and happy life with my family; but I can't even get that.
meel, provided your parents are not living in horrific conditions you should just do your own thing.
If their dreams come at the cost of your own happiness then why are you even considering it? they should have more reasonable dreams.