hey, i know this is brutal to say and for the last year people have been telling me this. I feel better than i have in the last year and a half, because this christmas i made a strong decision to push through the pain and get my strength back. protein which is what our bodies are made out off is more easily and readily broken down than fat , so when we are tired and not moving our bodys use what we arn't using which is our muscles. Before christmas this year ever holding a half fulll glass of water was painful.
this time last year i couldn't even do up my own zipper and Iam 21 years old.
i am a firm believer that everyone with fibromyalagia are very sensitive people.
plus the situation that you seem to be in seems stressfull to the max. My first recommendation is too try different natural ways to get a boost of energy. For me quality brand vitamins helped. i made a huge effort to push through the pain inorder to get back some functional muscle . It is a great idea to workout the muscles that allow you to do the things that you love!
Since i was in pain working out or not i though i might as well work out. Since you use to personal train you most likely know that there are many modifications. personlly for a push up or table top I use every modification possible. But this working out makes me happy and builds my endorphins, plus heklps me sleep better.
Me personlly my dad has a drup problem and my mom a drinking problem. so that is where my stress stremmed from. then through on the crazy pain.
It is going to be a process but in the last few months i have gotten better and better.
Another thing that really helped me was mindful relaxation, not just watching tv. Oh and i use sooo many things to help me have good posture. for example i can't use a lap top.
Sorry iam rambling on i just really want to encourage you not to give up, because i was pissed that this disease wasn't even killing me slowly , because i couldn't think of a long life like. But now i can actually see the blessings it has given me in life.
I think it is really important to find someone to talk to about all the dark things you keep inside. something free, and something you enjoy, this takes patcients as well but it is well worth it.
From my own experience speaking to my recovering parents was never a good idea because they weren't quite with reality. plus alot fo the time talking to them just made me more stressed and more in pain.
another thing that sounds really cheesy but i swear helps, is when you wanna complain in ur head out loud or anything, stop your self and try really hard to say Iam doing better and better in everyway, everyday.
life still isn't perfect, but I don't believe there is such thing.
stay positive and believe that you will be healed. there is alot of scientific proof for this. When we are stressed or negative our limbic system in our brain becomes stimulated, and for our brain to pick up on pain the signals enter the limbic system first. plus everyone can relate with the fact that increased stress comes with increased pain and fatigue. We can also grow our good feeling pathways of neurons if they are the ones we concentrate on. Stoke patients with enough patients and determination can actually regrow there nerves in there arms that were killed by the stroke. i know some of them personally, and they started with only being able to slightly move their pinky.
when iam in pain i use hot cold, a fan , or apply cream so i can concentrate on a different stimulus and actually work on firing up the good feeling receptons making the path easier for them to go to good feelings then bad ones,
Any ways, i will be praying for you and i just want to encourage you not to give up. you have more to give, do and joy to experience in this world.
Good luck !!!!!!!!!