I have an issue that's been ongoing and I've been doing my best to analyze it and find the triggers and avoid them or maybe not let them get to me so much but I can't so I'm looking for some input on what my issue really is and what I can possibly do about it.

It goes like this, and I'll give you a prime example of something that happened today.

I went to the doctors for a followup and explained that the test they sent me for while beneficial in finding something odd, wasn't pertinent to the main issue I came there for. I hinted that I think it'd be good that I get the test done on the area that I was having the real issues with. The assistant that was treating me seemingly got ever so slightly annoyed and said that I can't really be asking for tests when past exams have shown there's no reason and I've already have enough tests done on the area.

Right then, I god a blood rush and my heart started thumping hard and basically just had an adrenaline rush. My voice becomes shaky and I want to yell when i speak but I tame my speech to be normal tone however it comes out shaky and I tend to talk low and quick so people don't notice and I don;t give it away that something's wrong with me.

I told her I only had one test done (referring to the test done on the area that wasn't even giving me issues) and I kept a smile on my face trying to be aware of my appearance and look congenial. This is where things for m started to get cloudy and memory fails me. I remember her looking at me and then making a sort of sarcastic "mmhmm" and looking down at the papers. I remember asking her that i was confused as to what exam she was talking about, and she asked me in a sort of annoyed tone "you did have your stomach looked at right?" and I said no I did not. I then explained that when i was last here I handed the assistant a letter with symptoms written on it (all of which pointed to the abdomen being the main issue not the other aspect) and that that the test prescribed, that didn't affect the abdomen was the only thing prescribed.

She left the room to get a fax and I calmed down and she was nice when she came back and i acted super nice also.

Now as you can see, this happens when strangers seemingly think they know something about me and feed me info that i know to be false, or it seems like it is a mountain to climb to get someone to see the truth. I guess you can say that when i don't get my way that I KNOW is the correct way, it enrages me. Basically when people start acting like knowitall jerks. I DO want to try to explain the whole situation to make things clear to show that my thoughts are the right ones, but at the slightest hint that it's heading for that road, the adrenaline starts.

I think part of the reason may be that I don't even for a minute want to make it seem to the other person that I'M a jerk by standing my ground. It's like I take my reputation seriously and want all people to see me as a good person and knowing that refuting someone elses argument even when I'm in the right to do so will make THEM possibly get angry, I think that is where the panic comes in. I'm not sure but just trying to look deep here.

Thoughts please?