I am 25 and have suffered a similar scenario.
First off, you are 22 years old. Most people feel frustrated and lost in their early 20's, so you are not alone there. Have faith that you will soon find a path that will suit your own personal needs; financially and mentally. There are careers out there that are fun, easy, and make good money while you grow. Think of something that you could do endlessly, without pay, and try to find something that involves that. Pay attention to what you are attracted to. And DON'T EVER give up. If the path you choose is blocked with sh*t, another path WILL give you a shovel.

When it comes to other people, you need to have what I call a 'healthy selfishness.' Yes, you would give the shirt off your back for anyone, but you don't need to. There are people in the world that ARE worth a sh*t out there. Look for people who are motivated and focused on improving their lives and find something you like in them. If you surround yourself with people who think positively, it WILL rub off. Another thing that I like to say is "if you look hard enough, you can find a little good in anyone." A good exercise is to seek out good qualities in every person you meet and try to apply them to yourself. i.e. Danny shakes everyone's hand when he walks into a room. If you shake everyone's hand when you walk into a room of people you don't know, you instantly have a level of respect (no matter WHO they think they are.)It is not changing who you are (so to speak). It is knowing that you are improving yourself a little everyday that will keep you rockin'.

In reference to your ADHD/anxiety:
I am not a medical doctor, nor have a studied these "diseases". But, because I suffer from them myself, I have found ways to cope with them. First off, forms of self medication such as drugs and alcohol should be kept moderate to none for a million reasons. I am so much better with a sober mind. Plus, groups of people who are associated with drugs are normally non-motivated, full of drama, and are normally in trouble legally and/or financially. Second, Alcohol and ADHD medications (if you are taking them) do NOT mix. It is terrible for your heart. I take aderal to help me focus. I have found that even if I am not drinking and taking it at the same time, it has cause increased stress and anxiety (much similar to what you are explaining above). Also, if you are taking medications, make sure your dosage is not too high.

In any case, I recommend that you talk to a therapist or a counselor about how you are feeling. Like you, I have been through a lot of crap in my lifetime. But, it was not until I learned how to love myself that I was able to let all that crap go and move forward. Two therapy sessions had me letting go of a 20 years of crap. I think that everyone can benefit from the words of someone who knows what to say.

When I was 22, I felt just the same way that you do. I have kicked the anxiety, but I still (and forevermore) will have ADHD. Last year I made 50k doing something that I love to do. Just have faith.

I am in my 40's (getting pretty darn close to that 50 mark...), so I feel like I can look back and see some things "I should have done". I spent 20 years working in an unfulfilling job because I didn't know what to do with my life. Because I wasn't interested in my work, and I wasn't happy, I wasn't particularly good at what I did, it showed. Now I look back and realize a few things.

You should go to your community college advising center and ask for some tests / assessment tools to help you determine what field of work to go into. I took a Strong-Campbell inventory that pointed me in the direction of healthcare. I took the assessment 3 different times in my life and it kept coming back with nursing, x-ray tech, etc. Looking back, I should have taken out a loan and gone to school, found my niche, found something I fit into and found fulfilling.
You can find yours too!

You are young! You have your whole life ahead of you! My 20's were filled with wanting to "hurry up and make something of myself" which really got me nowhere but more frustrated. When it comes to feelings, just remember that your feelings come and go like the wind and cannot always be trusted. Frustrations, anger, insecurities...everyone has these. Today you may feel devestated about something, but tomorrow it will be better. Sometimes I see young people that feel like their life is not worth living because of going through hard times. But life goes on, hurts do heal, there are new beginnings and silver linings behind the clouds. There is a God give purpose for everything -- even our pain! Often it is because of our pain or suffering that we can feel empathy for others going through similar things.

I hope this isn't too rambling & hope you can find something you find truly fulfilling.

Hi, I'm 21 and was diagnosed with ADHD earlier this year. I think anyone with ADHD can relate to feeling unfilled and things not going right. However, I am sorry you had such a bad childhood. What I will say is taht things do get better, but not enless something changes. You cannot keep doing the same things expecting a different outcome. For this reason I recommend counseling and medication. While alot of people will down medication, I have found that they are those who either have never experienced what it was like to have ADHD and to what a disadvantage it puts us to others who are "normal" or those who have taken medication and not found the right one. You have to look out for YOU at the end of the day. I have consistently performed below my capability in college however I truly believe that my happiness has prevailed because of my ability to find things that do make me happy and that I can do well and because I have VERY POSITIVE people in my life. I am currently trying to find a medication that will help me perform to my optimum level atleast througout te rest of my education. Eliminate the negative influences in your life, you will feel so much lighter. I would definitely say that you should find a counselor you can talk with that will help you cope with the negative things in your past, and move foward to planning positive goals in your future. I think they should include things you enjoy doing. If that includes vocational school, college or what have you, then you should push yourself to do those. Find a way even if its hard! Also, do some soul searching, talk with those you know who will be positive for you...let them help you build a future you will be proud of. But most of all, search for a medecine with your doctor that may just change your life. There are many people who didn't think there life could go so good with the help. When no one else trusts in you, trust in yourself. Just when you think things are bad...they will get better, and there are those who are worse. As far as your anger, it may be another disorder that accompanies ADHD....such as ODD or Bi-Polar Disorder, whichever the case stay positive, search for the help to treat those disorders properly and start living your life TODAY. You only get one life....May God Bless You:)