My first encounter with pain killers was in 11th grade. Someone offered me a hydrocodon [Spelling] and ignorantly I took one. After that, I was hooked. At the time I was suffering from slight depression and the feeling that the pain killers gave me was heaven sent. I continued to abuse the pills, spending a majority of my money on buying pills. I knew I had a problem but at the time, I didn't know what else to do. By the time I was a senior, I had stopped using and was pretty clean afterwards. For the longest after I got out of highschool, I stayed away from any type of pain killer until recently. I got hurt at my job and was prescribed a strong dose of pain killer. It seems I'm hooked again and I'm not sure just how bad until I run out of the meds. I'm afraid it will be as bad as before because as of now, I'm going through another stage of depression. I'm already considering going back to my psychologist, just to be safe. Maybe if I get past the depression, the pills won't be a big problem.
I'm really glad to hear that you're ready to take the first step toward getting away from addiction --- which is admitting that you have a problem. I can totally relate. I used to smoke weed because it made me feel euphoric and underneath it all I was depressed.
Do you have a medical insurance plan that will cover either the counseling or perhaps even a stay in a treatment center for addiction? I found these two therapies very helpful. And you're NOT alone!
I see so many have looked at your post and so very few replies.....if you have the chance to talk to someone about this... then please do it.
Don't wait for it till it is too late...go get as much help as you can. Talk to lots of people... you have your whole life in front of you.. don't go down that route again... stay strong.. talk to you dr or support work.