Addicted to hashish and Tramadol

I was addicted to hashish since 6 years ago, heavy smoker, smoking was the first thing to do before anything, even exams.. i was feeling good all the time, so optimistic, talk-able, creative, funny, social, adventurous & energetic.. after a while i felt that life stopped suddenly feeling some depression, and i thought about quitting.. i already quit for 7 months but i was feeling different, strange, shy, pessimistic & sleeping too much, after a while i turned back smoking and i hated smoking at the begging but after couple weeks things got better and i felt nice again... after a while i started to take pills like tramadol, i became more energetic and i hated to sleep. i was enjoying every single moment in my life, people were loving me around..

And that story repeated like 3 times, quitting then relapse quitting then ....etc
my family sent me to a hospital last September, i stayed there 3 months, the first 2 months were nice i was feeling happy and everything is okay, after that i felt some depression.. i went out of the hospital at December..
till now am still feeling the same depression and pessimistic, energy is low and avoiding people & feeling sad most of the time.
I need to get over this, i want to start living my life before it is too late.
DRUGS RUINED MY LIFE
would you please help me to stand again.