I was prescribed Adderall xr 20mg about a month ago. When I first took it, I felt euphoric and happy. I have struggled with depression, sluggishness, and distractibility most of my life. I suddenly felt alive and like I have the energy and the drive to accomplish things that I usually left undone. The problem is that now the 20mg isn't doing nearly what it did for me before but I don't want to up my dose because i'm afraid of getting addicted. I've heard that long term heavy use of meth and other similar drugs can mess up your neurotransmitters and cause you to not be able to feel happy or sad about anything when you aren't on the drug. I've heard it disrupts your natural flow of chemicals like dopeamine to the point that you won't be able to feel without it. You'll basically be burnt out and unable to be normal. I guess it shouldn't matter for someone like me who is so dead much of the time without adderall but I don't want to kill what little ability I have to be naturally happy by taking this drug. Does anyone know anything about that?
I'm happy i found a drug that gives me a boost and helps me concentrate but there is that little voice inside of me that is disappointed that i can't feel this way on my own. I want to preserve the hope that one day I can.