You know, I've always believed that our personal standard of beauty for ourselves is much, much more harsh than the standard that other people impart on us. 90% of why people think or don't think we're attractive has to do with confidence, a sense of humour and passion. 10% is physical. Unfortunately it's normally that 10% that most people focus on as a first impression. However, having said this, you just have to learn to be confident. Believe me, it is a learning process. And if you are as ugly as you say you are (which I don't believe because people critique themselves far too harshly), maybe plastic surgery is an option... maybe a little mini makeover? Or getting in shape? These are all things that can boost your confidence, but you have to remember that simply changing your looks won't do it. You have to develop the other 90% of what makes up attraction!