I am 27 years old and Monday starts my last semester of college. I found out on July 14, 2009 that I was pregnant. I had 1 previous abortion 5 years ago and vowed to never do it again. I have always wanted the husband and baby type thing, (so I thought). Anyway, the father of the child is just a family friend who was having trouble with his current girlfriend and we hooked up while they were on the outs. He didn't try to get back together with her until a week after I told him I was pregnant. She has no idea that I am pregnant and I have not heard from him in 4 weeks. He lives 5 minutes away, no telephone call or nothing. Despite this, I felt that I had enough family support and financial support to raise this baby on my own.

I had experienced a little nausea from the begining, but nothing major. About 4 weeks ago it kicked into overdrive. I vomit all day. The smell of outside and even my own clothing makes me vomit. I have been hospitalized 2 times already because my electrolytes were all out of wack from the vomiting. They are threatening to hospitalize me for good if I don't start eating six small meals a day.I have tried all week and continue to vomit until there is nothing left to throw up but the bile in my stomach. A lovely array of yellow and green stuff that has a welcoming acid taste. I am on bed rest now and can't work because I suffer from motion sickness as well. They have tried all types of medications including ZOFRAN (same medicine chemo patients get) and none of it has worked. It makes it worse. I finally just can't take it anymore. This pregnancy will interfere with school and disrupt my entire life and I am starting to hate it for it. I made the decision to abort it today and I haven't felt this happy in weeks. I feel horrible for being happy about getting rid of a growing child inside of me. All of my family is so happy that I am pregnant, but I am not. I have lost a total of 17ibs in 4 weeks. Is it wrong to be happy about an abortion?