True knowledge exists in knowing that you know nothing. Socrates
My whole life I always prided myself on having the answers to everyone's questions regardless of the topic being discussed. I was so proud that I knew all there was to know about cars, travel, finances, real estate, fashion, food and more. I read myriad periodicals, newspapers, magazines, reports, etc. It never occurred to me that I did not have to know everything and that I was trying to fill the emptiness inside my soul. My belief that I needed to know everything was one of the many consequences of my alcoholism/drug addiction. I was so empty inside that I believed my only value was to know something about everything so you would find value in me.
I am not sure exactly when, but one day someone asked me a question and my reply was, "I don't know." The person looked startled and said, "What do you mean you don't know?" I said that I did not know!! That entire statement of those three words changed my life and all my relationships. I began to listen more than I spoke. I began to fill my soul with the knowledge and wisdom of others and I began to enjoy the free time of no longer needing to know. I learned more by admitting what I did not know than I ever did by thinking I knew everything. The power of not knowing became more powerful day by day.
In my journey in sobriety and as a Rabbi, Spiritual Counselor and Sober Coach, I am frequently asked by congregants and clients "why" certain things occurred and "what" the outcome will be. There was a time that I believed there had to be an answer for everything. I know today that there is not and that my spiritual condition soars when I am able to accept that without debate and resentment.
My prayer for you today is that you find the courage to be silent and enjoy the power and freedom of not knowing.
I am a modern and independent South Florida Sober Rabbi with an MSW Degree and 23+ years of sobriety providing Sober Coaching and Addiction/Spiritual Counseling focusing on energizing, affirming, motivating, healing, spiritual guidance and personalized life cycle events.
If you, a family member or friend are suffering, call me at 954-755-3764 to get the help you deserve. I can help you!
Hugs and blessings for a joyous day!